Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, trauma

Have you ever…

Have you felt so empty and confused, that all you want to do is sleep for a thousand years, just so you don't have to face another day where no one understands the pain you're going through? That no matter how much company you have surrounding you, you still feel completely and utterly alone?

Have you ever felt so livid because it seems everyone around you is happy, except for you. Every squeal of laughter or a beam of a smile sends you closer to insanity, because it didn't seem fair that they didn't feel this way too.
Broken. Shattered. Devastated. Terrified.

Well that's how I feel nearly everyday of my life. Which is sad since I have the most amazing man that actually can tolerate me. I have a roof over my head, I have food and clean water. So why do I feel like this?

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7 thoughts on “Have you ever…”

  1. Oh God, do we know what that feels like. Something you wrote that we would like to impart. You wrote:

    “Have you ever felt so livid because it seems everyone around you is happy, except for you.”
    You have it all twisted us. The lie is that everyone is happy and cheery. It’s all in your mind and reinforced through media. True happiness can sometimes be hard to find.

    We know how you feel. It’s lovely to meed another DiD sufferer.

    M and K

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